[Bishop's Fantasy?]
This is MY story and I'm sticking to it!Stupid
2007-05-29
Today, I have done not 1, not 2, but 3 stupid things. Guess what? I don't care. I've given myself permission to do stupid things today while the movers are packing up my life. I didn't do anything destructive or mean. Just stupid and childish. I've been gone most of the day. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Just sit around and watch these total strangers pack? Not my idea of fun. I'd rather be out acting stupid. Hmmm.....anger.....which step is that in the grieving process? I don't care because I hate thinking my behavior is following some pattern or formula. I will survive this. I will survive because that's who I am - not because people keep telling me how wonderful all of this is. STOP IT already. It's NOT wonderful, nor do I need it to be. I'm fine with being miserable for awhile and I don't need anyone to cheer me up or put a postitive spin on it. I'll snap out of this when I'm good and ready. Until then, I'll try not to inflict my attitude on too many people. Just vent when I can without being mean and deal as best I can. Oh, and lets not forget the stupid stuff. Being stupid and careless is kind of fun. I'm not going to make a habit of it, but it's nice to think that the world doesn't revolve around me and it's not going to stop in its tracks based on a few little actions I take.
Barnabus (2007-05-29)
Yea!! it's great to suddenly be human once in a while! and do human things that in other peoples opinions.....well they don't have an opinion...unless you decide to give them one!! Happy Humanity Day to you!!
Hardcore_Pyro (2007-05-29)
Get your pack on and we can take your attitude, cuz we care. Can you hear the bongos and the tambourines playing in the back ground?
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