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Purging

2007-05-13

I'm running through the cycle again.  It's the late night hour.  I had a pretty decent Mother's Day, all things considered.  I asked to have my van detailed.  It's going to happen in the morning.  Another step to breaking the tie and it's a hard one - yet another thing I can't share with my husband. 

I'm missing the Bishop something fierce tonight.  I've tried everything to combat the thoughts, but they keep running in circles.  Remembering what he smells like and how that smell would linger on me long after I'd left his presence.  That's what the memories are doing now.  Lingering long after I've been able to see or speak to him.  My heart breaks all over again.  I thought I was done crying, but maybe that won't ever be the case.  It hits me when I least expect it, usually over something trivial.  Somebody say a prayer tonight because my heart aches and I feel too weak to fight anymore.  I miss him.

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Hardcore_Pyro (2007-05-15)
Hang in there, I know I'm late but I'm worth the wait....

Doe (2007-05-14)
You remain in my prayers.

Elvenbeads (2007-05-13)
Brightest Blessings hon... i hope you sincerely get through everything. i do know what you are going through. And although our Faith is different, our paths different, i so understand your choices... your pain. A prayer to Gaia, I will say for you. A candle i will light for you, for us on my Altar. Blessed Be.

mav77 (2007-05-13)
u remind me of my l , i can understand what it feels like.. but u have to fight whatever u r going thru... in my case i had somethin wich screwd everything b'w me n her but i loved her nd still miss her but u've hav to be strong and pragmatic in facing it... i know how it feels when ur heart breaks...as if the whole world is falling on u... as if ur innner soul is being pulled by a vaccum cleaner... i love her..

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